Susanisms 

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Right Here..Right Now

It's coming up on the 4 year anniversary of my husband's passing and I am in Buffalo, NY where we shared the majority of our married life. This visit my top priority was to really clear his stuff, I was finally ready. My daughters had cleared some things but it was...

Quarantining & Clearing in Buffalo

I flew in from Phoenix, AZ to Buffalo, NY on July 31st so I am just about done with my quarantine. I had not been back here since December so this homecoming was fraught with concerns on how I would feel. Going home to Buffalo always floods my emotions with feelings...

Ode to My Love

I watch the ships sail, Billowing across the sea. The salty air tickles my nose. I come here to remember I come here to forget. My pain ebbs and flows like the tide. A bird flies by And lands by my feet. Wings remind me of freedom. Am you free now? Am I? Love binds us...

Back in Buffalo

Flew back to Buffalo a few days ago and am now in quarantine for 14 days as I came in from Arizona. Since this whole thing started in earnest in March I have been pretty much with myself most of the time so this is not new. Being in Buffalo is as I have not been here...

Good-Bye Funky Town

The past few days I have been in a funk. Just a what's the use kind of mood. Didn't want to talk to anyone or do anything. Just wallow in my misery. No singular reason just a general malaise of being fed up with everything. I went to bed like a true Oscar the Grouch....

Home IS Where the Heart is

Since my husband died I have been running from place to place trying to figure out where my home is. I now know that home is not about a physical space as much as about where my heart feels the best. In the beginning of the year the beach called me and my heart opened...